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So, even though it's really dumb, there's something called a chance meeting / destined meeting that I saw in a hentai, and it actually got greatly incorporated into my belief system.

It's obviously not something I haven't heard elsewhere, but it recently really stuck out in my mind, and so I like to apply it to very significant life events that I believe are more than coincidence.

Did I mention I'm schizophrenic? I am. I haven't been officially diagnosed (only a few casual meetings) but schizophrenia is the most likely symptom I have. I don't require medication as it doesn't negatively impact my daily life, but it does make me incredibly quirky, and so if some of the things I write come off as incredibly stupid, well there you go. I'll just blame it all on my disorder!

Anyways, had a chance meeting at work last night. Jessica was there, and.. we actually got to talk for a little bit instead of her rushing out right away. It was kinda nice.. and I realized I have NO feelings for her at all. Like.. before, I'd always have twinges and get super nervous around her, but it's finally completely stopped.

I saw her for the complete wreck she is, and my brains heart finally said "Ok, I already knew this wasn't going to work, but yeah there's just.. nah." & that was that. I'm done, and over her. It was super great!

There's a lot of things that have been happening as of late, and .. it's just really ******** nice. Things are coming together in such weird ways for me.. idk.