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So I've walked away.

After the clean break, he messaged me going on about how "IS THIS WHAT YOU REALLY WANT? BECAUSE I'LL BLOCK YOU FOREVER. THAT'S IT FOREVER. NEVER UNBLOCKING YOU. EVER."

To which I honestly replied, it wasn't what I wanted, but he would never give me what I wanted.

He kept throwing his daughters illness and hospitalization in my face, as if that was an excuse for his behavior before she ended up in the hospital. The insults on my gender identity and sexuality weren't enough, either. Nope, he had the audacity to then say I've been lying to his face for 10 years because when I initially told him about my sexuality, he dismissed my claims.

It's essentially a carousel now, with him saying "I WON'T APOLOGIZE FOR CHOOSING MY SICK DAUGHTER OVER YOU." which I never asked for.

I asked for an apology for his irrational behavior. If that wasn't acceptable, he could at the very least apologize for being a huge ******** a*****e. Nope, he just keeps bringing up his sick daughter.

Pretty sad, that he has to use her as a weapon, but it's ineffective against me. I have my own problems and worries at home, he's not the only one with troubles, which I don't think he can quite understand.

I'm starting to believe more and more every day that he actually is a sociopath. He doesn't learn from his mistakes, and he never admits he's wrong. He seemingly doesn't feel anything for anyone, just a possession over his children. Not love, but a possession. It's .. sad.

His constant "ultimatums" made me laugh, however. He even threw up, "I'M GOING TO LAUGH WHEN THIS BLOWS UP IN YOUR FACE, WHEN EVERYONE IS GONE FROM THE INTERNET AND I'M THE ONLY THING YOU HAD"

I laughed so ******** hard, he's basically an abusive spouse. "YOU'LL ONLY HAVE ME, NO ONE THINKS YOU'RE GOOD ENOUGH, YOU'RE TRASH ******** YOU AND STAY WITH ME OR YOU'LL DIE ALONE"

Almost verbatim what he said, sadly.

I haven't messaged him since the event, simply because:

1) I don't care
2) I want to mock him, but even that may come off as me being friendly
3) I kind of hate him, quite honestly.
4) He disgusts me
5) He's so pathetic it makes me sad