I'll C/P what I said here:
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Well this has drug on long enough, I'm assuming my answer before wasn't satisfactory, so here goes:
You aren't ever going to apologize, you'll just keep bringing up your daughter. She has nothing to do with this, but you already knew that. You just don't want to apologize for whatever ******** reason? I don't really get it. That, + all the s**t you've said the past few days? It's like, lol ******** you. Calling me a 10yr liar, crazy, all that kind of s**t? I just don't care. It's not that "our friendship can't be saved!" it's that our friendship ended. Yes, it did end. Yes, it is your fault. If you don't think so? That's a whole different story, and I don't care who you blame for it at this point. The entire point of the conversations the past few days was, "can we start over fresh, and be friends again?" and it looks very clearly like the answer is no. So if you've been holding off on blocking me, and you definitively want to blame me for us not starting fresh? That's fine, I'll accept the blame for it. Someone has to, and I can see that we're compatible anymore. I don't want to hide myself or just swallow s**t around someone whom was my best friend. You're supposed to be able to talk to your best friend about anything, admit anything to them, and they just go "******** yeah", unless it's something stupid and dangerous, in which case they go "well I'm going too ******** that". We don't have that bond. We had a shaky friendship built on mutual hate and aggression from a chatroom full of dysfunctional teens, and somehow we made that friendship last 10 years. People change, and they grow up, but we were both too scared to admit that and admit we were different people now than we were in the past.. or maybe that was just me. Maybe I just didn't feel like I could tell you without you giving me s**t and calling me a liar. I don't know, and I don't care anymore. Anyways, yeah, block me. I don't want you sitting there losing sleep waiting for some ambiguous answer from me, I'm more considerate than that: I'll just tell you straight up, yeah it's not going to work between us, so block me, delete me, and pretend I never existed. Blame me for things going the way they did, whatever it takes to cope with the loss. It's not easy, but you'll get through it. I did.
You aren't ever going to apologize, you'll just keep bringing up your daughter. She has nothing to do with this, but you already knew that. You just don't want to apologize for whatever ******** reason? I don't really get it. That, + all the s**t you've said the past few days? It's like, lol ******** you. Calling me a 10yr liar, crazy, all that kind of s**t? I just don't care. It's not that "our friendship can't be saved!" it's that our friendship ended. Yes, it did end. Yes, it is your fault. If you don't think so? That's a whole different story, and I don't care who you blame for it at this point. The entire point of the conversations the past few days was, "can we start over fresh, and be friends again?" and it looks very clearly like the answer is no. So if you've been holding off on blocking me, and you definitively want to blame me for us not starting fresh? That's fine, I'll accept the blame for it. Someone has to, and I can see that we're compatible anymore. I don't want to hide myself or just swallow s**t around someone whom was my best friend. You're supposed to be able to talk to your best friend about anything, admit anything to them, and they just go "******** yeah", unless it's something stupid and dangerous, in which case they go "well I'm going too ******** that". We don't have that bond. We had a shaky friendship built on mutual hate and aggression from a chatroom full of dysfunctional teens, and somehow we made that friendship last 10 years. People change, and they grow up, but we were both too scared to admit that and admit we were different people now than we were in the past.. or maybe that was just me. Maybe I just didn't feel like I could tell you without you giving me s**t and calling me a liar. I don't know, and I don't care anymore. Anyways, yeah, block me. I don't want you sitting there losing sleep waiting for some ambiguous answer from me, I'm more considerate than that: I'll just tell you straight up, yeah it's not going to work between us, so block me, delete me, and pretend I never existed. Blame me for things going the way they did, whatever it takes to cope with the loss. It's not easy, but you'll get through it. I did.
He hasn't responded, and I doubt he will, other than to say "Alright" and block me.
I'll post another journal after this for thoughts/venting/etc. so I don't s**t up the one entry.
