14:18 Skype Mic Test
Anyway, I'm not changing how I have always been just beacuse you suddenly decide to change your views. (yet ********)
14:19 Ghost
I know, I've known that for a long, long time.
14:19 Ghost
which is why I'm not asking you to.
14:24 Skype Mic Test
Oh man am I going to laugh later on down the road though. When this inevitably blows up in your face. <.<
14:26 Ghost
How so?
14:26 Ghost
In 5 years when I'm looking back, wondering how it all ended? I've already recorded that in my journal
14:27 Skype Mic Test
Better make good friends with that journal, thats probably all your going to have.
14:27 Ghost
I smiled, because you're the only person who actually has a problem with me, or with any of this
14:28 Ghost
everyone else I've talked to is very accepting and pretty happy for me
14:28 Ghost
oh, that was a ultimatum in disguise though, I almost missed it
14:28 Ghost
"BE FRIENDS WITH ME OR MAN YOU'RE GOING TO BE SORRY"
14:28 Skype Mic Test
Yeah, and when those people that think you're so great doing this all get tired of it internet and you know, get lives you're not going to have anyone to stroke your ego.
14:29 Skype Mic Test
And no, no ultimatium. enough with that
14:29 Skype Mic Test
Anyway, those people gone, what have you got? Chloe? nah she'll most likely have finally had enough and left
14:30 Skype Mic Test
You old man will eventually die (like everyone I dont mean that as an insult or anything)
14:30 Skype Mic Test
You dont get along with your brother according to chloe
14:30 Ghost
you have no idea how big i'm smiling, lol
14:30 Ghost
I have an exit plan for 30 years old
14:31 Skype Mic Test
Visiting the nightshade bush again? -eyeroll-
14:31 Ghost
buckshot to the temple, like most people do around these parts
14:31 Ghost
I don't want to get old and get sick like my dad
14:31 Ghost
if everyone really is gone? I'll be free to pass on to the next life
14:31 Skype Mic Test
Why are you acting like this is in the far future?
14:31 Ghost
3 years
14:32 Skype Mic Test
Huh. Where did time go
14:32 Skype Mic Test
Oh right
14:32 Skype Mic Test
I spent it with a liar
14:32 Skype Mic Test
=/
14:32 Ghost
When I'm sitting in my death chair, I'm going to yell out
14:32 Ghost
"ha, I sure fooled him for 10 years"
14:33 Ghost
boom
14:33 Skype Mic Test
Or you'll weep at how much of a d**k you were
14:33 Skype Mic Test
Ironically though
14:33 Skype Mic Test
I'll most likely be dead too
14:33 Skype Mic Test
LETS HAVE A DEATH PARTY MANG
14:33 Ghost
which is why I said maybe in another life, we'll have another chance
14:34 Skype Mic Test
Nah
14:34 Skype Mic Test
I'll pass on that
14:34 Ghost
no one gets a choice
14:35 Skype Mic Test
Let me guess, neena told you that, huh
14:35 Ghost
no, actually
14:35 Ghost
lilith did
14:35 Skype Mic Test
I see, I see.
14:37 Skype Mic Test
But yeah, wouldnt want to offend you with my misogyny in the next life too. So I'll make sure I go to where all the normal people go. OK? biggrin
14:37 Skype Mic Test
******** you skype emote
14:37 Ghost
sounds good
14:38 Ghost
I'll probably be a woman in the next life, so I doubt I'd want to be around a misogynist
14:39 Skype Mic Test
Yeah, the next life is the one where you're a womman, ok~
14:39 Skype Mic Test
Oh, was I being offencive again? -embarras-
14:40 Ghost
only with your spelling, but I'll forgive you
14:40 Skype Mic Test
5:am I'm alowed to not care
14:40 Ghost
1:40pm, same
14:41 Ghost
especially considering I woke up this time yesterday, and I'm going to work in ~ 20 mins
14:41 Skype Mic Test
At least you dont have kids.
14:41 Ghost
I never could, either
14:41 Ghost
"thank ********"
14:42 Ghost
I agree
14:42 Skype Mic Test
"Smart" is actually what I thought
14:42 Skype Mic Test
I love my kids, but god damn it never ends
14:42 Skype Mic Test
Oh
14:42 Skype Mic Test
I'm talking to you like a friend again
14:42 Skype Mic Test
WHOOPS
14:43 Ghost
If that's what you consider talking to me like a friend, wow, lol
14:43 Ghost
that's how you'd talk to stranger on the bus
14:43 Skype Mic Test
Like ********
14:43 Ghost
"Man, I love my kids, but sometimes, you know?"
14:43 Ghost
"Yeah buddy, I hear that, haha"
14:43 Skype Mic Test
I wouldnt mention my kids to a stranger
14:43 Ghost
you would to make small talk
14:43 Skype Mic Test
No.
14:45 Skype Mic Test
I keep saying, my home life is very private. I dont talk about it with anyone I dont trust
14:45 Skype Mic Test
But that worked well in the end huh
14:45 Ghost
yeah, you're pretty weird about that
14:45 Ghost
ryan, from roosterteeth is the same way
14:45 Ghost
but eventually he started having his kids show up in productions and the such
14:45 Skype Mic Test
I protect my kids.
14:45 Skype Mic Test
thats my job
14:46 Skype Mic Test
I dont go talking about my daughter to some random on a bus
14:46 Ghost
what if the random has kids too?
14:46 Skype Mic Test
what if I drop my wallet and he gets my adress and turns out to be a *****?
14:46 Ghost
LOL
14:46 Skype Mic Test
I dont take chances with my kids man
14:46 Ghost
what if a meteor smashes into your house?
14:46 Ghost
do you have a bunker?
14:46 Skype Mic Test
I'll punch it
14:47 Skype Mic Test
I will literally punch it out of the ******** sky
14:47 Ghost
the best way to protect your kids is to teach them s**t and don't shelter them too much
14:47 Ghost
like obv. don't be a ******** about it
14:47 Ghost
but they have to learn whats dangerous and whatnot, so people don't take them for fools and screw them over
14:48 Skype Mic Test
I do teach them. Thats obvious. But I also dont expose them to unnessisary potental danger
14:48 Skype Mic Test
if Im out with them and someone wants to talk about them fine
14:49 Skype Mic Test
If im by myself I dont feel the need to bring the kids up
14:49 Ghost
what if someone else has kids
14:49 Ghost
and you look like a creepy *****
14:50 Ghost
like you go to a toy store to pick up something, and you're there alone because its for their birthday
14:50 Skype Mic Test
I dont give a ******** what they think <.<
14:50 Skype Mic Test
I'll buy that ******** barney and wrap that s**t
14:51 Skype Mic Test
IF someone actually came up and aks, well yeah I'll be "its for my kid"
14:51 Ghost
then you drop your wallet and it turns out it was a *****
14:52 Skype Mic Test
Then it was unavoidable
14:52 Skype Mic Test
Good luck getting to my kids though
14:52 Ghost
i'll pretend to be a ***** then i"ll go steal your comp
14:53 Ghost
also, heading to work so my replies are going to slow down significantly
14:53 Skype Mic Test
Yep, I'm probably going to rip this comp apart soon anyway
14:53 Skype Mic Test
try and fix this ******** s**t
15:06 Ghost
yeah
15:11 Ghost
work is boring.
15:13 Ghost
I guess I'll just contemplate what I'm going to do when all my friends abandon me
Monday, 20. April 2015
06:15 Ghost
oh wow, I actually thought you blocked me yesterday
06:15 Skype Mic Test
Eh?
06:16 Skype Mic Test
I told you I was ripping my computer apart
06:16 Skype Mic Test
cleaned it out and zero ring formated my hd
06:17 Ghost
oh
Tuesday, 21. April 2015
09:09 Blyr
Well this has drug on long enough, I'm assuming my answer before wasn't satisfactory, so here goes:
09:17 Blyr
You aren't ever going to apologize, you'll just keep bringing up your daughter. She has nothing to do with this, but you already knew that. You just don't want to apologize for whatever ******** reason? I don't really get it. That, + all the s**t you've said the past few days? It's like, lol ******** you. Calling me a 10yr liar, crazy, all that kind of s**t? I just don't care. It's not that "our friendship can't be saved!" it's that our friendship ended. Yes, it did end. Yes, it is your fault. If you don't think so? That's a whole different story, and I don't care who you blame for it at this point. The entire point of the conversations the past few days was, "can we start over fresh, and be friends again?" and it looks very clearly like the answer is no. So if you've been holding off on blocking me, and you definitively want to blame me for us not starting fresh? That's fine, I'll accept the blame for it. Someone has to, and I can see that we're compatible anymore. I don't want to hide myself or just swallow s**t around someone whom was my best friend. You're supposed to be able to talk to your best friend about anything, admit anything to them, and they just go "******** yeah", unless it's something stupid and dangerous, in which case they go "well I'm going too ******** that". We don't have that bond. We had a shaky friendship built on mutual hate and aggression from a chatroom full of dysfunctional teens, and somehow we made that friendship last 10 years. People change, and they grow up, but we were both too scared to admit that and admit we were different people now than we were in the past.. or maybe that was just me. Maybe I just didn't feel like I could tell you without you giving me s**t and calling me a liar. I don't know, and I don't care anymore. Anyways, yeah, block me. I don't want you sitting there losing sleep waiting for some ambiguous answer from me, I'm more considerate than that: I'll just tell you straight up, yeah it's not going to work between us, so block me, delete me, and pretend I never existed. Blame me for things going the way they did, whatever it takes to cope with the loss. It's not easy, but you'll get through it. I did.
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