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So chloe keeps ******** telling me about her tattoos and I always bring up the pain because I honestly don't think she could handle it. She does the same s**t to me with s**t she thinks I can't handle, and I don't say ******** s**t because I get chewed the ******** out when I do.

I'm so ******** tired of all this double standard bullshit with her, SO ******** TIRED OF IT.

If I act concerned about her and worry about her, well you're ******** stupid how I feel constantly changes you can't tell how I feel based on periods.

So I don't act concerned about her and don't worry about her, well you're ******** stupid you can't see how down I've been acting the past few days?

WELL MAYBE IF YOU'D STOP ******** CONTRADICTING YOURSELF????

I just don't give a flying ******** anymore, it takes too much energy to care about someone who flip flops every ******** day and who I need a ******** RSS feed just to know how I'm supposed to react. It's ******** tiring constantly walking on eggshells and constantly doing this or that because I don't want to upset her. I can't ******** do it anymore, especially not when I get the "dad" lecture form her.

THAT IS WHAT ROYALLY PISSED ME OFF.

You know what, c**t? I don't say a lot of s**t that pops into my ******** head about your stupid s**t at all. You know the first thought that popped into my mind when you told me you were going to missouri? "I bet you're going to do drugs". You said you're going to go visit leah? "I bet you're going to smoke pot with her". Did I say that? No, because I know better, and I"m not a piece of s**t.

******** TELLING ME "GEE THANKS DAD, I GUESS YOU THINK I'M STUPID" now THAT pissed me the ******** off

ROYALLY PISSED ME THE ******** OFF

MAYBE I THINK YOU'RE STUPID BECAUSE YOU KEEP ACTING LIKE A ******** IDIOT

GEE OPIE WHAT WOULD HAPPEN IF I WENT TO A RAVE AND DID DRUGS, HERPADERP

GUESS I'LL DO MORE DRUGS NOW

LETS DO ACID

ILL DATE MY BFF BECAUSE ******** HOW JAMES FEELS! HURP

OH SHE'S ******** HER BOYFRIEND, GUESS ILL GO BACK TO JAMES SIGH.

OH OTHER PEOPLE, I'LL DATE THEM BECAUSE JAMES IS A SAFETY NET

NOW I'LL BREAK UP WITH JAMES AND ******** HIS BEST FRIEND

OK NOW I'M GOING TO MISSOURI WHERE PEOPLE HAVE EXPLICITLY TOLD ME THAT THEY WANT TO ******** ME, AND I'VE PROVEN I CANT BE TRUSTED BECAUSE I CONSTANTLY TALK ABOUT WANTING TO ********, AND I ******** JAMES BEST FRIEND!

Maybe I think you're a ******** idiot because you think I'm too ******** blind to see all this s**t.

GUESS WHAT, I JUST KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT 99.9% OF THE TIME. YOU HAVE ROYALLY ******** ME OVER SO MANY TIMES IT'S INCOMPREHENSIBLE THAT I'M STILL EVEN FRIENDS WITH YOU. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY I KEEP FORGIVING YOU AFTER EVERY TIME, ESPECIALLY BECAUSE IT KEEPS ESCALATING AND GETTING MORE AND MORE PERSONAL.

I THINK WE'RE BOTH ******** RETARDED FOR THAT, YOU FOR ******** ME OVER AND ME FOR LETTING YOU

GOD DAMN