man i don't even know how to start this
my emotions have been messed up lately like I've just been getting a stronger feeling of loneliness? emptiness? lately. thats probably a sign but ew..it would explain it
like i keep having thoughts/flash backs to my old job that i loved more than life and i literally felt a stab in my heart. i try rlly hard not to think about it cause it still hurts to this day but y'know it was my fault.
and even now i have relatives going to Myrtle beach this weekend and I was asked to go but I already made previous plans. Which is fine. I'm excited about the fun I'm going to have saturday! i guess it was just the tone my mom had about it. she was like OH WELL TOO BAD. and that got me a little upset. Which is stupid ugh..I hope my brother goes with her if she ends up going because I do not want to be trapped in a house with him for a good portion of the weekend. What a nightmare he is.
I just wanna get completely drunk and cry.
my emotions have been messed up lately like I've just been getting a stronger feeling of loneliness? emptiness? lately. thats probably a sign but ew..it would explain it
like i keep having thoughts/flash backs to my old job that i loved more than life and i literally felt a stab in my heart. i try rlly hard not to think about it cause it still hurts to this day but y'know it was my fault.
and even now i have relatives going to Myrtle beach this weekend and I was asked to go but I already made previous plans. Which is fine. I'm excited about the fun I'm going to have saturday! i guess it was just the tone my mom had about it. she was like OH WELL TOO BAD. and that got me a little upset. Which is stupid ugh..I hope my brother goes with her if she ends up going because I do not want to be trapped in a house with him for a good portion of the weekend. What a nightmare he is.
I just wanna get completely drunk and cry.
07/30/15 7:31pm
