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She said she still wants to meet up with him (because of course she does, he's toxic and she's addicted to poison) but what's most concerning is, "I'll meet with him casually when he texts me" meaning she's going to be waiting around staring at her phone hoping it's him that's texting.. which will lead to a very negative relationship, and a dependency on him.

I just worry. She's a big girl, and honestly I have no right to meddle in her affairs, but that's why I'm typing this here instead of telling her what I actually think. I told her, "If I hear that she's become his b***h I'll kill him", she laughed because she didn't glean the subtle meaning I implied, that if I find out she's dependent on him, that he's using her and throwing her away like a ********, I'll ******** murder him.

I think they're going to meet soon, because she won't stop talking about him all day, which, whatever. It doesn't feel great, but I'm also finding myself caring less and less what she does with her personal life. I've started talking to someone new, and so I'm moving on, so to speak.

I'm so concerned, though. "I'll just casually ******** him whenever he texts me~" meaning he has all the power, and she's literally going to be just like one of the girls she told me about. She knows exactly what she's getting in to, I just hope it's worth it.

Either way, I'm going to keep my mouth shut about it, it's none of my business and she didn't ask for my input, so I won't give it to her. I just wish she found someone right, someone who isn't literal trash.

Now that I know she's going to be ******** him again, I don't need to satisfy her physical needs anymore, so I won't. That, and I don't trust that her dude doesn't have STD's. Especially not if he sleeps around as much as she implies, like blech. She doesn't think he does, "because I'd know!" but yeah.. I'm not going to ******** her anymore once she starts ******** him again, especially because he went to a party and most likely blew off chloe because he was going to ******** someone else.

She's a side thing, and she hinted that she doesn't want to get serious about him, so he's just going to use her as a cocksleeve. It's tragic, but no one will listen to me if I tell them to stop and don't do it, so why bother, right? No one ever listens, despite them telling me they will/do. People do what they think is right, because .. people are people, honestly.

Next week she's going with her mom to Missouri, which will be good. She'll get away from this toxic ******** place and maybe clear her head. I hope so, anyways.

If all she actually wants is to be used like someone's ********, then alright, more power to her, it's not my place to judge.

I will judge, because I'm human and we can't help it, but I won't openly admit it. C'est la vie.