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I was using candles to ask Lilith questions

I do it sometimes, it's barely a blip on anyone's radar

It might have something to do with Harmony though, I can't know for sure. I might have edged myself past the point of no return.

As I sat here writing that other journal entry, I kept seeing a shadow behind me out of the corner of my eye. I thought it was someone standing in my room because I felt a presence. I look, and of course I see nothing, all 8 times.

So.. something found me. Who, what, why.. I don't know. I don't honestly care, it didn't feel malevolent, so I'm not particularly concerned, I'm just curious if I finally crossed the point of no return. What a stupid why to do so. ******** baby candle rituals :I

Well, whatever. there's a lot no one knows about my soul, so I'm not worried about anyone coming for it. Lilith has already laid claim to the lionshare of my energy for the next while too, so I'm not worried about them coming after that either, unless they really think they can tango with her.

Ah, beautiful. Starting to hear my name through the headphones. Just once, a womans voice. "Jaameess~" It wasn't anyone I know, and I know a lot of women. I know Harmony's voice, incase future me wonders that. It wasn't her. This voice was younger, a bit more sultry. It sounded vaguely like chloe and grandma combined, it was a very odd tone that I've never heard before.

We'll see how far I went and what all knows about me now, and then we'll see if this changes anything. Neena can always clean up the mess after, and ofc. I'll be banned from rituals for a while for being irresponsible, but eh.. c'est la vie.