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I got the confirmation I needed, she's in a relationship with this new guy, which that's fine, it's her life.

She's going to be moving in with him soon, probably within the next month or so, maybe sooner? I guess it'll depend on how quickly she can save the money for a plane ticket. I'll help her buy one up there, because I'd rather get this over with sooner, rather than later.

One thing I do not ever want her, or anyone else who puts me in this situation to tell me, is that they care about my feelings. No, you do not. If you did, you would not put me in this situation. You would not put me in a situation where I'm going to kill myself.

I know it's not your problem, so who gives a s**t, honestly, but don't ******** pretend you care. You don't, and pretending you give a ******** will just piss me the ******** off. You don't. I mean nothing to you.

My brother should be leaving my dads house soon-ish, so I guess living there will be BETTER? I'll probably still be forced into the ******** spider filled laundry room that's absurdly hot in the summer, and freezing in the winter, with very little privacy, and constantly having my sleep interrupted.

I mean, I guess since she's going to be gone soon, I could just kill myself now. I might do it tonight.