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Every time. Every time it happens this way. I'm so frustrated with my work habits I could cry. WHY CAN"T I WORK!!!!!! I know there's a deadline, I know!!! BUT WHY!!! Why does everyone else seem to manage to get things done so well? Am I really the only one that wants to work... but my body doesn't? I have lost faith in myself. Again. AFter hours of trying to write the f-ing essay, I'm not getting anything done, even though I wrote highly condensed notes that are good enough to count for something! twisted I HATE MY WORK HABITS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! evil scream scream I feel so left behind, procrastinating all day long by playing video games or on the computer, even though it bores me crazy. I'm just... afraid of messing up, I guess. I dunno. But why should that stop me? Probably because I look at that paper and only see disappointment. I see nothing. No more. But I'm also tired of disappointing myself, but I feel so helpless about it. So helpless.