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Ok! It's been over a month since I last updated my journal that practically no one ever reads, and I think it's about time I updated and stuff. Christmas was good. I got a bunch of stuff. Books I liked. I got a V-CAST phone!!! Yay! I've been taking it everywhere with me. So many pics and videos on it already. I need to figure out how to look at my minutes, so I can like... budget them or whatever. I know I have 450 daytime minutes, but that's it... i didn't get any ringtones on it yet, since I haven't figured out how to do that through limewire, and anything I do outside of calling and stuff is paid through my bank account so yeah... I finally figured out how to use that transflash/adapter, so next week I'm putting stuff on the computer, so I don't lose it or anything. All-city rehearsal's been good. We've been to two or three concerts already, but it was alright. I've been through over 40 episodes of Eureka Seven. Yay! Turns out I had to spell it right. (Man I felt stupid after I realized it) Lessee... relationships... in the past few weeks, two girls have confessed their feelings to me. One was my neighbor, three years younger than me and too wild for my tastes. The other had just gotten out of a relationship, and still likes me. I still had Rachel at the time, and I told both of them the moment they confessed. But I had feelings for someone else, and it wasn't Rachel. I met her by chance, just waiting outside the library or something. I was feelings kinda trapped by pressure to succeed about school and college, and wanted to escape, so I went with a few people around and stuff. Just to dan's house and Loesche playground. At first I supressed my feelings, not wanting to hurt Rachel, and thinking it was just a physical attraction. They called her Oreo, and the third time we all went out, I confessed my felings to her. She liked me back. She's three years younger than me, but I don't notice when we're together. (I actually thought she was about 15 when we first met.) I'm not sure when I picked it up, but her name's Jasmine, and I had a talk with my father last night... He definitely does not like the idea I'm going out with her, or rather... someone three years younger than me. I don't blame him for being concerned. I was too. I know there could be changes along the line, and I could end up getting hurt, or hurting her, but when I broke up with Rachel, I thought I would be completely off the market, single or not. But I eventually caught myself thinking "If I would risk it, it would be with her." Dad gave me some warnings. I half-expected him to say I couldn't see her anymore, and I was prepared to defend my feelings towards her. But he told me I would eventually find out we live in two completely different worlds, and that I'll end up in a whole load of crap if I'm not careful. But on a lighter note: Rehearsal for the musical has been going very well. Socki actually praised me for memorizing ahead of schedule (though I still haven't memorized anything beyond the first Act)