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Why is it that we choose to have a set personality? "Just to make it easier for everyone..."
Maybe. I feel, if I wanna be honest, that I'd be a disappointment if I acted differently. Like, I'd be, a VERY boring person if I didn't do a few key aspects. I like acting stupid-cute and doing clumsy things in front of _ _ _ _ _ _ because she'll laugh and find it cute and well, it just works so well. For the both of us. I like being entertaining, hearing their laughs and comments. But, that's not me. I'm not sure if that's anyone at all. Now, if I were to be, completely normal, I would probably sit and draw? Or, I don't even know what I'd do. Who am I?
When I'm with _ _ _, I speak a lot about violence. Actually, when I'm with a lot of people. But that's, really not my style, I don't think. All jokingly of course. I dislike the idea of hurting people and I can't stand watching them get hurt, which is one of the top reasons I can't watch horror movies. Then why do I do this? Maybe it's because they share this kind of humor with me.
Do we do this to ourselves because it's easier to interact with people? I think so. I wonder if I've been myself with anybody. Ever. I wonder if I've even been myself with,... well, myself. I don't even really know who I am right now, or how I'd act in certain things if it were just me. Maybe this is stupid. Maybe I do know. But it's not easy.
We choose to have a set personality because it's easier to interact with others. It's also easier to stand out, to not get lost in the crowd of faces they have, so that they'll remember you next time, and remember what you're like, how to act in front of -you-...? So this is a cycle then. And, it sounds in a way, sick. Like, why would we be anyone but ourselves? But, when you think about it, if you get a lot of friends, and it doesn't bother you, why not? Nobody needs to know the real you is -tired- and not the "Happy-Go-Lucky" person you put yourself out to be, nor do they need to know that you get angry easily if you're a hippie or that you're normally really shy.
I feel completely comfortable being in my shoes, but acting with a personality different than mine, in front of others, so, this is natural. Hey, maybe this IS my personality. To act stupid in front of some, in some situations, or act a certain way. But no... because I used the word 'act', which is appropriate because it's not myself. Alright, so I'm on the right track, although I've probably lost a reader.
I think I'll spend the next few days thinking more of what I come off as to others and why I chose what personalities to give them.
Wht_Phoeni_x_ · Sat Jan 27, 2007 @ 05:54pm · 1 Comments |
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