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I have a big sis and another lil bro!!!
April 15, 2007



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I'm dying from the inside
but you don't see
for you don't really care what's happening to me
I've tried and tried to reach out to you,
but the more i tried the more you slipped away.
You're so near yet so far away.
I've been there for you...all the time...
through sadness..
pain...
joy...
i'm always there for you,
but you never noticed...
you know what hurts the most?
losing the one you love, not because of death,
but because knowing that the one you love will never be yours...
that someone had already secured a place in his heart...
the place that you want to be in right now....
and that hurts like hell...
and slowly...
painfully....
I'm dying from the inside....

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another day...another journey...so much had happened but I can only tell a few. A while ago, after a tiring tour around GAIA towns, I settled myself under a tree. There was this guy sitting on the other side. I thought he's the kind who would just sit there and watch other people do their own business that's why I didn't greet him, but then he turned to me then greet me. I was kind of surprised but a part of me is kind of expecting or maybe hoping that would happen. I don't know why I felt that but I disregard thinking that it was nothing. This guy I'm talking about is kind of nice, we talked about a lot of things. I kind of like him, as a friend of course, we have a lot of in common. He would be an ideal boyfriend here in GAIA, that's what I thought first but there's just one glitch, he's a year younger than me. I'm 16 turning to 17 in a few months while he's 15 turning 16 in a few weeks. I greeted him an advance happy b-day after knowing that he's turning 16 in a few weeks. The thought of him being my boyfriend had gone as quick as it came into my mind. He's a really nice guy and I think he would be a great friend.

Earlier this day, I also met a few people. It was kind of a weird incident. I was again sitting under a tree then there's a guy on the other side and also a girl at the back. That guy is really weird, he kept on emoting then he would say that he wants cookie. Yeah, you read it right! A cookie! That guy is just really weird for my taste. After a few minutes of sitting and watching other people interact to one another. I went to the back of the tree to talk to the girl. We talked about a few things and I got to know that she just broke up with her boyfriend. I tried to cheer her up the best way I could even if we just met each other. I also got to know her age, she's 18, almost 2 years older than me...I get to know the age of that weird guy also, he's 14. Now I understand why he acts like a kid, hehe, even though 14 is not a kid age anymore, he's acting like one. After that weird incident I got a big sis and another lil bro. The girl is my big sis and the weird kid is my other lil bro. I get to mention on my last post that I also met a kid who became my first lil bro here in GAIA. It was really fun talking to other people who live in different countries. My father kept scolding me of playing here in GAIA.

By the way, didn't I mention on my last post that I will be going to UP?...well tomorrow's the day. Man, I'm so nervous. I really wish that I get admitted to that school as a transferee. I know that if ever I get admitted I have less time playing here in GAIA and posting on my journal because I heard that it's kind of hard to study there. I really have to study hard so that I could graduate. It's really my dream to finish college and get a nice job, simple isn't it?..well I have another dream. If ever I got the chance to go to Japan, I'll go there and work and also take my Masteral Degree at Tokyo University. Since I was a kid, I dreamed of going to Japan and I hope that someday that dream would come true but for now, I'm just focusing on my admittance to UP and finishing college.

One more thing. I think you noticed the poems I post on my last entry and this one.
Well, I've decided that every journal entry that I write there will be a poem post at the beginning. Some of the poems are not written by me. I just got it from other people but some poems are and will be written by me. For example, the poem on my last journal entry is not written by me while the poem in this entry is written by me. Don't worry I'll tell you guys if the poem I post is written by me or not.





 
 
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