• CHAPTER 128 - SEPARATION ANXIETY

    I'm being pulled away from him again...

    Even though the idea ignited the inferno in me, I had to agree. I couldn't afford Kai stressing out so much from me being hurt and he couldn't afford losing me. It was always a lose-lose situation when it came to things like this. Either way, I didn't like what was going on; either I'd be separated from Kai again or I'd just end up killed if I were to stay in our house any longer. I needed more protection; Kai and I weren't ready to move in alone quite yet. We never realized how huge of a responsibility it was to move in together when there were Vampires, Werewolves, and even a Succubus after me.

    "What all do I have to bring?" I asked Kai apathetically as we were packing my things in the bedroom--Matsuda and Kira were conversing out in the living room, giving us our privacy.

    "Bring just a few pairs of clothes; you'll have to start wearing Orihime's hand-me-downs." Kai explained as he handed me a shirt.

    "Why do I have to do that?" my eyebrows burrowed together.

    Kai sighed while folding a pair of my pants and stuffing them into a small suitcase, "To conceal your scent. We can't have Minoru or Kaiba know that you're somewhere else, so we'll be keeping several pairs of your clothes here so they're under the impression that you still live here."

    "I'm not going to be able to do anything, am I?" I looked up at Kai. "I won't be able to leave the house at all, will I?"

    Kai's lips pursed together and he smiled sentimentally, "Most likely,"

    We continued packing my clothes and toiletries in silence with the soft mumbles of Kira and Matsuda in the other room. Kai ended up handing me a pair of clothes--probably Orihime's. Once I came back into the bedroom from the bathroom, my suitcase and small bag were sitting near the bedroom door and Kai was sitting at the middle of the bed. I climbed onto the bed in front of him and locked my arms around his neck and my legs around his waist. He moved his hands down to my bottom to support me and he kissed my neck delicately, causing chills to crawl up my spine.

    "Don't assume this isn't hard for me either," he mumbled, his lips moving gracefully against my neck as he spoke. "It's not my desire to suffer through this again either."

    "Well..." I bit my lip, "you're able to visit. At least I'm not on the other side of the world quite yet." I mumbled, trying to be the optimistic one.

    Kai's arms wrapped around my waist and he pulled me close to him, burying his face into my neck. My bite wounds from Minoru and Kaiba were still a little tender but they were almost finished healing. I wrapped my arms around Kai under his arms and pulled him even closer. Another long goodbye. Sure, he would be visiting probably every day, but it wouldn't be the same at all; we wouldn't be able to sleep in the same bed any longer, he wouldn't be watching over me all night while I was asleep, I wouldn't wake up to his sleeping face behind me whilst in his arms, it was all slowly dissipating.

    Everything as we knew it was flying out the window and we couldn't get any of it back. I was going to die--I was going to die within one to two months unless Matsuda and Orihime could manage to move me across the world. To be honest, I'd rather be murdered by Minoru and Kaiba in Kai's arms rather than live across the world, knowing the contract would be causing Kai so much suffering. It was a curel thing to say, but I'd rather know he was freed of the contract if I were dead in his arms.

    "Don't say that," he mumbled.

    "Just kiss me," my voice cracked.

    My hands cupped his face and his hands gripped my waist and I planted one right on him. I had to get the taste of Minoru's tainted lips off of me before I would leave Kai again. Kai's tongue ran over my bottom lip and ended up running over the circumference of my mouth. We were getting carried away, pressing our tongues against the inside of each others cheeks again. Our lips finally unlocked after a light knocking at the bedroom door.

    "You guys ready yet...?" Kira's voice came in, followed by barely suppressed laughter.

    Kai and I took a quick glance at each other and we both sighed simultaneously. My arms wrapped around his shoulders and we nuzzled each others faces and necks. We kissed one more time and I climbed off of Kai and he climbed off of the bed. Kai opened the bedroom door and allowed Kira to take my luggage, cracking a perverted joke along the way. I only laughed halfheartedly; I really wasn't in the greatest mood for perverted jokes.

    The time finally came when Kai and I were standing at the front door where Minoru and Kaiba were standing no more than two hours ago. Matsuda generously opened the front door for me and Kira was waiting outside the front door with my luggage. My heart audibly tore in two after looking around the house once more. I didn't know if I would be back or not; we didn't know how well or long this plan would play out.

    Momo trotted his way over to me and I stroked his head once more, "You keep Kai company," I smiled halfheartedly.

    Just as I was about to take my first step outside, I turned around and launched back at Kai with a sob breaking out of my chest. Our situation wasn't nearly as bad as when he left me at the orphanage, but the contract was going to kick in at any time so our time together was limited. I gave Kai a big kiss and he kissed me back. He gently pried me off of him, cupping my face and wiping away any stray tears. He gave me a kiss on the forehead and whispered to me what I always wished to him.

    "Be safe," he kissed my forehead once more.

    I stepped out of the house after slowly and gradually releasing Kai's hand. Climbing into the car, Kai had stepped outside to watch my departure. Matsuda's car backed out of the driveway and I pressed my hand against the car door window in the back seat. Kai merely stood at the house with a complexion of pain and sorrow. He'll be vising, he'll be visiting...I continuously told myself in my head as we took off down the road with Kai disappearing in the distance.

    ~*~*~*~*~*~

    Opening the front door and stepping into the commodious mansion once more, I was greeted by an exuberant and surprised Ai. She squealed and ran up to me, crashing into me with her arms around my waist. I showed her a light smile and ruffled her hair around a little bit.

    "Nana, I didn't know you were coming!" she smiled. She looked around after Matsuda and Kira followed after me. "Where's uncle Kai?"

    My heart fell at his name already, "He's still back at the house,"

    Ai paused for a moment and then grinned, grabbing my hand, "Nana, want to draw with me?"

    I opened my mouth to politely reject but Matsuda beat me to the punch, "Ai, Arisa is a little down today. She needs some alone time."

    Ai paused again and nodded, "Okay, Matsu,"

    Ai skipped back into the living room and started making playful conversation with Orihime. I could already tell that Orihime probably loved Ai as much as she loved her own child. Kira stood next to me with my luggage and nudged my arm with his elbow. I nodded and led the way up the stairs into the bedroom that once belonged to Kai. It was still rightfully his--the mansion was built in the early nineteen-hundreds and the bedroom had been Kai's for over a hundred years.

    "Tell me he'll be okay," I squeaked as soon as Kira and I reached the bedroom and I stood in front of one of the windows.

    Kira turned me around slowly and embraced me, allowing me to quietly sob on his shoulder, "He's going to be okay, I promise,"

    I shook my head absently, "Kira, it's ending...it's all ending," I wiped away a couple of tears while still in his arms. "Kai's going to kill me..."

    "He's trying everything in his power not to," Kira cupped my face and forced me to look at him. "He's exhausting himself beyond explanation just for your sake. He doesn't care if he dies in the process, so long as you'll be okay."

    "Shut up, Kira," I shook my head. "If he keeps trying to provoke them, they're just going to shorten the time even more."

    There was a long pause before Kira spoke up, "Kai will be visiting tomorrow. At least display that you're doing okay."

    "He knows I'm miserable--there's no point, Kira," I pulled away. "You may leave now."

    Kira nodded and gracefully left the room, slowly closing the door behind him. I took a moment to pull myself together, only to collapse onto the bed and break apart again. I knew before I had told myself that I was prepared to die, that I had accepted what was going to happen, but now that it was actually nearing, I couldn't hold onto myself anymore. I never anticipated how scary death was when it's right in your face, brought on by my own beau.

    "If only...I was brave enough..." I mumbled to myself while crying silently.

    I knew I wanted Kai, I knew I wanted him badly. There was always something that would hold me back whenever we would become enticed. I still wanted to stick with my abstinence vow but it wasn't likely possible to get married within two months, especially if I wasn't ready to tie the knot quite yet. I loved him so much; I wanted to go as far as normal lovers would but I just couldn't do it. Deep down, I knew I was aching for his touch, for his kisses on my skin, for the weight of his body on me, for his...thrust.

    With heavy blush making its way to my cheeks, I continued to lie on my stomach on the bed with my face smothered in a pillow. As separation anxiety was seeping in, I took my precious time to think to myself of the future Kai and I would have had if it wasn't for the contract we were damned to. We were a miserable couple but it wouldn't stop us from being together. We both shared a deep passion for each other and had just one more step to go before we would belong to each other forever. Making...love...