• -I can’t tell the future. I can only fathom the possibilities.

    “You told her?” he said coldly, all traces of warmness leaving his face. It seemed as if he had put a cold mask on, hiding any emotions that might have been apparent. I knew I shouldn’t have confessed to him, but it had to be done. “Well?” he added impatiently when I didn’t immediately respond. I couldn’t find the words to speak, because I knew that everything was going to be ruined if I told him the truth. Yet, I couldn’t lie to him; it would only make things worse. “Damn it Lyssa! Did you or did you not tell her?” He yelled, slamming a hand against the wall. It trembled in fear under his fist, as did I. Fear welled up inside me as salty tears began to trickle down my cheeks.

    “Yes…” my voice was barely a whisper in the small space. The mask that JD had on his face vanished and several different emotions began to show. I watched in terror as his face contorted from an expression of pure anger, to hatred, to confusion, and then finally to sadness; where the expression stayed. “But I had my reasons.” I added, finding my voice. He did not have the right to patronize me like he was. He knew that he was the one in the wrong! How could he be so arrogant? He was the one who lied to us, played us, and betrayed our trust. JD deserved to hurt; he had no valid reason to be upset, other than the fact that I broke my vow of silence, although… he lied to me about the situation. So wouldn’t that make my promise null void?

    “And your reason was what?” he muttered, his voice still cold. I picked up my gaze so I was staring into his eyes. I’d never allowed myself to cry in front of him, but the tears flowed freely now. I could feel the anger rising in me as I stared into his eyes. They looked so innocent, lost and confused, almost as if he was seeing me for the first time.
    I stared back, my tears of fear turning into tears of rage. “Are you ******** stupid?” I asked, shocked by the iciness of my tone. JD slumped against the wall, surprised at my outburst. “You of all people should know why I told her. She was your girlfriend if I’m correct. Which I am. ” I snapped. I paused to regain my composure. I didn’t want to yell at him, because god knows what would happen if we both got too upset with each other… After he didn’t respond I continued with my speech. “If I do recall correctly, you lied about being together with her when you were ‘with’ me right?” It was his turn now, to feel the guilt. It was his turn now, to be put in the spotlight, and accept responsibility for his infidelity. “You didn’t even tell me that you were with her at all! I had to be told by someone else!” my voice rose different octaves as I pointed a patronizing finger into his chest. In response his body seemed to crumple. It kind of looked like he was going to fall into the wall he was leaning on.

    “You…” I was at a loss of words, there were so many things that I could call him right now, I could yell and scream at him, but what good would that do? It wouldn’t do any good. I lowered my finger from his chest and sighed heavily, wiping the tears from my face.
    “Why?” was all I could ask. I wasn’t just asking why he lied to me, and cheated on the girl he claimed he loved. I was asking why he did everything. Why he broke me, and made me into the disheartened, bleak person that I am today. I couldn’t take this anymore. I was going to give JD one final ultimatum. It was going to be all or nothing, and I meant it this time.