• Submitting to the sickness
    Harms my way of life
    My heart on the line
    In between the cross section
    Of love and hate
    Dont make me choose
    This feeling is pain

    Its pulling me over to him
    But you say you cant live without me
    I cant live without you either
    You make my heart beat
    But he makes my heart full
    Yu say your true and mine forever
    And i do want you forever
    But your not here when you should be
    He is...

    My fate is in the hands of my heart
    The strength my heart can hold on to
    But I wonder can i really let you go
    Can i take him and never look back
    Never doubt you were what i needed all along

    You say your my soulmate
    I say i am yours
    But with this good always comes the bad
    This hurt of not having you tares me on the inside
    And rips me on the outside
    Torturing inside out

    As i ask myself everyday
    Who will hold my heart today?
    I feel the excitement hit me
    A rush some might say
    But also i feel the ache
    The terror
    The hilarity of it all
    You have no clue hes taking me away
    And he has no clue i already have you
    Would you still stand by me when you find out?
    Will he?
    Will you laugh and walk away
    Will you cry like i am right now
    Or will you forgive me...

    But truthfully i dont want forgiveness
    How can you forgive someone who falls for two different guys
    Their both so different
    But then again so much the same
    Im not worthy of such love
    Love were i hurt not just one but both

    But then i learned
    Oh, did i learn
    I learned of the girl you liked
    I learned of the girl he liked
    While you love another closer near you
    He loves another farther away from him
    So should i feel guilty?
    Guilty?
    For liking both of you at the same time
    When all along yourand himwere doing the exact same thing
    Can i stand to look you in the eye and see your fake smile thrown in my direction?
    The same ones you give her everyday
    Can i stand to touch him and feel his warmth?
    The same warmth he gives her everyday
    Can i stand to see anything anymore?
    Feel anymore?
    Or should it all just stop?
    I like the sound of that better
    So maybe...
    Just maybe for awhile
    I will shut my eyes...
    Close my ears....
    And shun away others touch
    For awhile maybe i can feel no pain