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Hey There Dililah ~+Just thinking of Alec+~
This song made me cry. But I smiled thinking of the good times I had spent with Alec today or any other time this summer with him, period. It's not like he is going to be gone forever, right.........? He will... be....back... crying when school starts. I will see him! An I will be so happy! I will see you too Theresa-chan! crying I hope school will start soon, so that he can be back in no time! Well, I did nothing all summer....!!!!!! NO! MY SUMMER WAS THE MOST AMAZING TIME OF MY LIFE!! I COULDN'T HAVE DREAMED OR EVEN EXPECTED A SUMMER LIKE THIS ONE!!! INFACT, I DON'T WANT IT TO END, DAMMIT!! crying WHY IN THE WORLD AM I SAD?! SADDNESS IS A SIGN OF WEAKNESS! I SHOULDN'T HAVE IT...BUT I DO! What I need to do while he is away...is sleep and never wake up until he either calls me or if I just happen to see him running to me at school. But I will miss him when he is gone. He will never leave my mind even though "he" will leave for just a while. I LOVE ALEC SO MUCH! HE IS MY HEART AND SOUL! IF HE WOULD ALLOW ME, I WOULD BOW DOWN TO HIM, SO MUCH THAT MY LIGAMENTS IN MY ARMS AND LEGS WOULD RIP AWAY AND I WOULD KEEP ON BOWING EVEN IN A POOL OF MY OWN BLOOD. Heh...my life...the one that keeps my heart aflow and beating. It is weird somehow...I get so excited to be with him....but I am yet so shy as well. It must be so obvious. When I seen him today, my eyebrow kept on twitching somehow and my heart just lept with joy. I was shy and I couldn't keep myself from saying "yay". I couldn't stop telling Alec that I missed him even if he got the message. I thought I couldn't be able to tell him everything but I did. Gosh, I am so in love with him that it is unreal. If anything ever happened to him...I would kill whoever killed him with a slow and agony-filled death. Also, I will NEVER love again. To me, there is no other love. Not at all! Oh! And by the way, I am actually cutting my hair in real life. So that you all should know. Well....cya.
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