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When the rain comes pouring, I see it as though it were from my eyes.
When I look away, I am always stuck on the thought of how much I miss you, then the tears start to continue again.
The pain is harsh, more than life can handle. A burden with such a tremendous weight on my heart.
Why does it hurt so much to miss you so badly?
I want for you to be with me, here and now. Why can't I have it, the thing I want?
Is it too much to ask for?
Is it too hard for you to actually....nevermind.
I see why.
I see it as if it were my problem as well.
You can't do it and also...I am too much of a poorly built person, that wants everything done her way all the time. But how is that possible? I don't think of myself at all!!! I never think of myself! Everyone needs more help than me worrying about myself all the time. I can careless about myself. Yeah, I know. It is sad. I am sad. We are all sad I am sad. So that makes a whole world of saddness because I am sad. And you know what? It annoys the hell out of me!!!! I can't take it! It makes me want to rip my hair out!!! And scream while doing it because of not just the pain, but for how angry I am. But it doesn't matter, nothing matters now. AAAAAAAAAAARRRRGHHHHH!!!!!!! I AM HEADSTRONG!!!!!! PISSED OFF WHEN I WANT TO BE AND I AM!!!! YEAH, I AM EMO!!!!! I CRY! I USED TO CUT!!! HELL YEAH I DID!!! I AM CRAZY FOR LOVE!!!! BECAUSE I WOULD "LOVE" TO HAVE IT "ALL" THE TIME......BUT I DON'T! I AM GREEDY! EVEN THOUGH I MAY "LOOK" HAPPY, YOU NEVER KNOW IF THAT IS "REAL" HAPPINESS. crying AN I TRRRRYYYY SOOOO HARD!!! BUT I SEEM TO NEVER GET ANYWHERE! I AM, OR I USED TO BE A BIG FAN OF BEING A LONER! BUT YOU KNOW WHAT? I CAN CARELESS NOW! MUAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAA! WHAT IS THAT? YOU THINK I'VE LOST IT? HAHA! THINK AGAIN!!! twisted