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I love you so much...i really do, i don't want anything to take me away from you...But i find that I, myself am doing just that, I feel so stupid,I don't know whats wrong with me even though i really didn't do anything i feel so guilty, i feel guilty for talking to other dudes or talking about them when im on the phone with you, i really don't know what to do, i love you so much && i want you so bad...buht on the other hand i know all ill end up doing is hurting you, i've known this for a while now buht i dont know how to say it because i feel like your the first true love that ive ever had,I thought i loved people before you, but baby thats nothing compared to the love i have for you, when i'd lose the other people i'd feel so blue, but if i lost you i really don't know what i'd do, buht i know that if i was to lose you it would be all my fault, id have no one else to blame but myself, if i lost you, i'd lose myself,i'd lose my heart cus you'd take it away, i'd lose my life cus without your love i feel like i'd die, i'd lose my happiness cus when i talk to you thats bouht the only time i'm happy,I'd lose everything, I'd lose the sun in my sky. You haven't done anything, It's always me, I'm so dumb, So selfish, Such a b***h, So fray.
God, whats wrong with me? Why am i always hurting someone? Why am i the way i am? why'd you make me this way? Why do i act like i don't give a damn? I wish i knew what was wrong with me, i'd fix it for you but shyt, i don't && i don't know what i am to do, I don't know if we should continue this relationship because eventually i know ill break your heart, your something special, && i don't deserve you, and i just want to tell you that you would leave me if you we're smart, im nothing, im worthless, ill just hold you back, i dont deserve to be happy and i feel so blue, i feel so bad for the way i treat you. I think im meant to be alone, maybe thats whats best, maybe everything would be better if i was laid to rest, maybe i should kill myself, i wouldn't be missed, Maybe i should go away and hide,It would be for the best. Maybe i should just go and leave everything behind because i can't take it anymore, i can't stand to see you hurt, but im whats hurting you, without me you'd be better, If its hot outside im like you, wearing a sweater, all i am is a crutch something to hold you down, you should find someone else and leave me alone if you don't then you'll be prone to pain and heartache and nothing else, all i'll do is make you sad and then when your sad, i'll make you mad and the cycle will continue if you stay with me, so i think you should go...and leave me be.