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The journey has never been this hard,
just as soon as I trust & let down my guard
the bond we had is broken once more
I love yu..buht I must close this door.

My heart is like a broken record,always playing the same old song
I try my best buht yet && still I'm unable to right my wrongsz
I think 'maybe I'll never find the one', what we had or at least, what was perceived is gone && another web of lies is spun.

I resist the temptation, I put on a fight buht try as I might I let go && for yu a battle is won. This war has 1 purpose && cause;;; to ******** with my emotions and dabble with my flaws && yu are the 1 whosz winning this fight, yu say 1 thing buht act out another && I'm the 1 whosz left to shed tears late at night.

Why is life a load of bullshit?
sometimesz I wish I had some way to get out of it
or at least a way to get some peace,
basically a way to get away && to split

I have someone, buht the one I have is not tha 1 I want,
someone very close to me wantsz him to && every time she mentions him && I think && I know its her he wants && with that she taunts
the fact that she could have him, she flauntsz, while the feelings I'm starting to have for him daunt in my mind.

I have a mom && a step dad who constantly argue &&
when they do, I can't get a word in edgewise between the 2.
I try to stop them, buht this does not cease &&
when I'm in the picture it just adds on to tha beef.

My real dad left before I was born, although I don't know him, he took away a part of me && with that I'm torn
I picture tha day I'll meet him,
my hazel eyes look on in scorn.

I'm a very lonely person, no matter what it seems, I might seem happy, energetic && crazy, buht the fact is I'm torn apart at the seams,
it feels like the only time I'm truly happy is in my dreams, for its the only time I get away from my problems && all these evil schemesz.