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Boxing:
So I’ve always wanted to box. I love to fight, now I don’t go looking for them! My parents have been thinking if they should put me in it because I’m too violent. Only thing holding them back is cause they are scared imma get really hurt. But thing is I just love the adrenaline rush after a fight or getting hurt >.< I don’t hurt my self either!!

Glasses:
So I sorta use glasses. I’m suppose to at least, but don’t. Lost the last ones I had… I’m suppose to use those that change in the light. My eyes are sensitive to the brightness like many other people. Honestly can’t even see bright colors with out having my eyes tear . I want glasses cause its also hard to read without them…and I love using glasses J I think I look nice with them…probably wrong but still…..lol

Shoes:
Thankfully I don’t have a shoe fetish like many women -_-’ I don’t’ like to spend more then 20 dollars on shoes….they go on my feet I can easily just walk without them either way (which I do a lot…). I remember once I went to go buy two pairs of shoes I needed, it was for a special occasion and it require white shoes when I only have black, and I swear I was shocked when I say the price tag to a pair in this one place. 100 dollars for one pair of shoes. Women there had basically carts full of shoes, where the hell do they get that kind of money?!?!?! I didn’t buy any from there. And know now I found the exact same brand, style, and by the same designer for 15 bucks at this other place….I swear those ladies where just wasting their money at that place…

Things I Hate:
I hate a lot of things really… Here are some things I hate: being called emo, given a razor to cut my self (according to that person..), Being called a liar (main thing), parents that have no right to be called a parent, seeing people sad, storms, and well other stuff… honestly if someone was to piss me of with doing or saying something I hate they can’t expect me to talk to them for a while and if I do they can’t expect me to be so happy with them….

Counting Stars:
Its actually the name of a song by SugarCult. A really, really, really, really good song.
See I discovered this song when I was extremely depressed…I wanted to kill my self not caring of the rest… just wanted to end this life that I still feel is so pointless to continue living… I pushed my friends away…and well many things I regret now. My friend gave me a CD of the bad SugarCult, I liked it so decided to download more of their music. I saw the title to that song and though “might be interesting…” I listened to it. The chorus goes like this: “Counting stars wishing I was okay, crashing down was my biggest mistake, I never ever meant to hurt you only did what I had to counting stars again..” For some reason it made me feel guilty. I thought of my friends that knew I was depressed… cause those that knew were scared that they might lose me that night or the next… How I hurt them…. And for some weirdly insane reason I started counting stars.. When I felt down of course, for each star I’d try to remember nice things that have happened…or a wish for each one. Something, but it soothed my nerves and I wasn’t so sad after I counted them… I remember once I was on a really downer… I got a candie gram from two of my friends. It was one on behalf of both. It said, “Have fun today Mandy! Hope you feel better! And remember keep counting stars!” it made me smile…it was really sweet of them… my other friends and family tried buying all this expensive big stuff…things I didn’t want and just returned to them. I guess that little card is what I wanted…and I thank those two so much for it…

Happy Memories:
I love to think of them… I remember once I was with my friend Rachael, she invited me to go baby sit at her church with her, saying it would help me feel better. We had a blast that day. The three kids were so adorable, the little boy was like “Octopus man!!” and all this other stuff. I had balloons so we blew them up and came up for a game for them… After that we went to this park right next to it. Me and her pretended to be pirate (just cause we’re teens it doesn’t’ mean we forgot how to have fun). It was so fun! Also one time when I went to the mall with some friends. We had heard of a new movie theater opening by it. We couldn’t find it so we called her mom asking she said its suppose to be by a hooters. When one of them found the hooters in front of two hot guys she screamed out “Go hooters!” the guys looked at one another and agreed with her lol. It was funny. But she was embarrassed… I also remember that one birthday of mine. Remember tabby when you came two hours earlier to help me with everything? That was extremely funny… we filled over 500 water balloons that day and used them up. Also on my quince right here I’ll admit at the end of the second dance I did fall….it wasn’t part of the dance…thank goodness cherry had my had or it would have been worse >.< it was fun though… Another thing was When Rachael, Cynthia, Tabby and I hung out. You guys remember? When we got the ice cream, soda, whip cream, cookies and I forgot what else and mixed it all together in a bowl >.< it was so funny. And when Rachael’s parents came back they where like “you guys hungry?” we looked at one another all like “ugh no more food” lol I remember that day so well….(see Rachael I do remember all these things we all do together…and you know there are much more then this!)

So this is the end of this one…. I made it so I wouldn’t have to go journal crazy today putting one after another….lol it was a bunch of stupid things so sorry for having to have wasted your time. I’ll pt more interesting stuff when I’m up to it I guess….. >.<