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Seriously, what am i goign to do?? there is only 26 more days(from now) till school starts.
First off: I just recieved my regestraion packet, and i HATE the new dress code. I'm someone that loves to express themselves by apperance, and i'm sorta extream with that. and then the hair?? imma have to paint it black tomorrow or sometime this week, and red IS a natural color...this is HORRIBLE! And then the attendance pollacy? Excuse me but i miss many days of school, and will more then likly miss more then 10% of the school year, and apparently even if they are all excused absences(which they always are) it will still count against me, and take off credit!!!! I'm sooo damn sorry i always have to be seeing the damn doctors, sooo damn sorry i get sick all the ******** time, not like i even want to... And then i have the tendancy to disrispect athoraty if they try to tell me i'm wrong when i'm right, perfect example is when the damn security didn't believe i was a girl! i had to lift my shirt up to prove it, very damn stupid... what did the school bord do about that? nada, they just told me to stop dressign like a guy, for goodness sakes all i wore was a damn t-shirt, how am i dressing liek a guy? and i DO NOT have male fetures, other then my sholders.....my face, anyone can tell i'm a girl if they just looked, especially since my eyes give right off the bat i'm a GIRL! that day really pissed me off... and then there is this new crap of no heales....i'm damn sorry but some of the outfits i wear/have need to have heales, and refuse to use any other kind of shoe. Here is my thing with their rules and regalations, i hate them. I'm getting introuble for minor things while other are doign far dumber things, or they only call my attention on things and no oen else's. Here are example of that. 1-Okay so my hair was "calling too much attention" the damn security (same one that didnt believe i was a girl) calls my attention on it and tells me i can get suspended and all this crap, while the kids next to me were using drugs, and i KNOW she saw that, come on they are right in front of her face. what did she do to them? nada! 2- Once more my hair was "calling too much attention" i had it with redish streeks, something i've worn before and they never said a thing, they told me it was the 5th time they "catch" me brakign the rules and yada yada, okay to listen to this, a girl had her hair half blue and half blond-litteraly divided in half the colors- it took them 2 ******** days to "catch" her, here's the pittiful part she always walked right infront of their faces, and would even stand their in front of them. You people wouldnt' believe how pissed i got... I also get sent to the office a lot cause i "call too much attention"...there are people in there that dress more extream then i do, and do worse things and they do nothing to them!!!
Second: Grades, classes, and well yea that stuff. How am i gonna do it? I'm extreamly slow and these damn teachers explain everything sooo fast, and i have a problem with asking for help, i'm "smart" to people cause i know so much on things, and when i ask for help the attention goes straight to me, hate when people stare...makes me nervous to a poitn of puking... Also i litterally forget about homework. through out the entire day i tell myself "i'll do my homework tonight" over adn over and over again, but we take soo many notes, do so many quizes, tests, activities i forget by the end of the day... i tried havign someone call me up and remind me, didnt' work cause that person would forget to call. I'm also sorta closterphobic...and you know how many kids are in the classes?? usually like 44, and the rooms arent even that big. honestly the only reason i passes this past school year with out panacking was caue i had two classes in which there was enough space, one only had like 12 kids in there, very spacy and not scary cause the teacher would have me sit somewhere away from the rest(he knew i'm closterphobic and that my other classes had many kids in them, so he always tried to make me feel comfy). another class, dance, well yea there was many kids in there but since we where in one of the gyms it was okay. Mathematics, of any sort, are not my best friends... and i singed up for acounting, and algebra two! my head shall explode...
well yea imma start ending this but first... YES i am a drama queen. And just for the record only reason i've come soo far (school and grade wise) is usually because i tend to be very stuck up to one male teacher(why male i dunno) and that one teacher tends to help me with my studies when they can. that one teacher is also the one i tend to go to when i have a problem, they cant do much for me but if they see me not doign my work in class or soemthign they understand why. hmm...i wonder who that one teacher will be this year.....