And that's what I get for falling again can NEVER get him out of my head. Its the way he makes me feel...its the way he makes me fall in love.
"She's beautiful as usual with burises on her ego and her killer instinct tells her to be away of evil men. Pretty girl is suffering while he confeses everything...."
Pretty soon I'll figure out i can never get him out of my head. Its the way he's in my mind, Its the way he makes me cry, its the way he makes me fall in love...
.....Its the way I love you.....
Okay so someoen asked me to make this journal that i am making. And only they will understand why i started it the way i did. and Maybe a few others that knwo me very well. I only agreed cause i owe him so much. now lets get to the point
Okay "Pretty Girl" is a song sang by SugarCult. The person who asked me to do this dedicated that song to me, this is like the 5th person to do that. The song talks on how this girl was stupid enough to fall for a guy over and over knowing perfectly well he was no good for her. My friend considers me that girl. He says he expected me to learn the first time, adn is disapointed i failed again. When he confessed how much of an idiot he though i was, and how blind he thinks i am, it hurt. Obveasly, i thought abot his words at night as i layed in bed. Yes this happened recently. This friend has seen me in my all. In physical, and emotional. He's seen me dressed completly down and liek a guy and all ugly (to say), and he's seen me dressed in a dress, and "very beautiful" as he said. This friend, i will share the information that he likes me, but i dont like him, a true one sided love cause he says he's felt that way since we meet, about 3 years ago. He's seen me completly broken, and seen me over filled with joy. When he recently confessed how he felt about how he feels about the way i take my "love life" I thought about every detail in each letter from each word he said.*thinks* I'm a hard head, so if the guy has even one thing missing from what i want, and is extreamly sweet, i wont accept him, and if he has all the qualaties i want and treats me liek s**t for some reason i take it and accept him. (he pointed that out). Well i give in... I'll go with what my friend said, which is to stop being such an idiot. If he cant accept my desicions or something there is no point, and i should do a thign for them if they wont for me. And to give those that do "deserive" it a chance >.>
well i'll end this, and now for that person i did this for...I'm still not going to be whit you, you know why. and i love you, in my own way. and i say take your own advice and stop tryign with me! for goodness sakes i treat you like s**t >.<
and blah blah blah blah so on so forth....People, girls i mean, DO NOT become the "Pretty Girl" i swear is shows how much respect you supposable have for yourself. if you have a good amount of respect then dont become that, or anything.
