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Love burns my heart,
Lust keeps me going,
But my feelings hold me back
like chains dragging me into everlasting darkness...

And as I'm dragged to my doom
To this everlasting pain called love,
I wonder why those who seem to love me
only "love" me for my beauty?
What happened to my intelligence,
my desires and dreams?
What happened to the beginning
when we didn't want to part from each other?

Moving on is something I want to do,
but it's so hard...
Cause my love for you
controls me like slavery,
working endless nights and days,
Never getting food, never getting clothes,
never getting the love I should have...

My insides turn sore when I hide the pain
It keeps coming up my throat,
Like an illness about to kill me,
When I'm in my bed,
I'm crying for you...

That night, I remember it well,
and sometimes I wonder
Why did it end and why do I regret it
and why do I regret meeting you
in that office that day
Imagine the pain I wouldn't have right now
If we never chose that way...

-Amber Rutland