Masturbation helped me vent my sexual frustration, and so I feel very relaxed and at peace right now..
I'm glad Neena is forcing me to do this and that.. it's going to weather me very well.. basically, if Chloe WANTS to abuse me, I have to let her, but if she loves on me, then I accept it fully.. (I know chloe would never be cruel and abusive to me on purpose, so I'm really not worried.)
work today (2-10), and tommorow (sunday, 2-10) so blech~ x.o''
Oh well. I had a day off, so I'm ready to hit the grind.. going to go to sleep soon, so I can get up earlier and shower before work.. thenn i dunno. Saturday.. doubt anyone will be up early in the morning, Chloe will probably be cleaning or something, maybe go to a party/rave this weekend, no clue. No one really tells me anything.. and I keep trying so damn hard to make friends irl, but no one gives a s**t.
No one wants to hang out with me.. SO! ******** 'em.
At this point, I hope people keep abusing me, I hope people keep treating me like s**t.. that way, I'll be GLAD to have no one around.
I was sad about having to live alone before.. but now I'm somewhat looking forward to it.. (no offense to chloe. I wouldn't mind living with her, but I am seeing the upsides of living alone now...)
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