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this pain i feel inside
had twisted all my binds
forever intwinged within
seeping through my limbs
off of my cursed sins
abide my lifeless tame
satured by my tears
on these lifeless days
so cursed am i by a sin
these sins i mustn't rid
for its sins i do not know
but done by my hands
and the tears keep draining
down my cheeks filled with pain
forever drown by my hate
and thrown by my love
that has nothing more to gain
oh god has thou not a cure
a cure to love all my shame
in which i've brought into myself
for what has thy done
to deserve such a treatment
or hate and disregarded life
should i regret being born
or should i just lay here dying
from the pain in my weeping heart
it swallows me whole from the inside out
and yet i seem to live without care
a sour pulse in my dreary wrists
forever pulsing slowly
executing my life from my limbs
yet the shadows still so far away
seeping towards me
taking my breath away
but yet what is this breath i breathe
is just a retched time being sent away
with every breath of air i lose
but it seems i cannot plea for my release
it still skurries within me
taking me away from the world
but should i be thankful for my departure
or should i pray for my freedom
has though done to much to get this freedom
that though may not deserve
its curse of cures still not been with me
has seen no light but the darkness proceeding
it still drains my soul from my body
soon i'll have nothing to be for
nothing to exist in being here
have i been here or have already died
still the answer resides within
and yet my heart hasn't gone without a pulse
its every drop of blood still draining
slowly with every moan of pain
but have i had pleasure in this death
or will i stay here in pain dying
praying to leave this world
wishing for freedom from every corner
in this reluntless place
where my sins take my wishes
and shread them with my life
it seems my life is gone proceeding from my body
shaken by it's curse and seeping from this world
has though died and gone to heaven
or has my sins brought me to hell
upon all places where i can mellow in shame
on my displeasing sins of which i have done
and so i am gone for all to mourn
on my reckless crimes