You've come back for more punishment?
...I don't know who else to turn to...
Oh? So you're depending on me to guide you?
...If you are willing...
That's what I'm here for... Now tell me... why are you sad.
I don't want to live...
Ah, this again.
Yes....
Take your own life. I'm not doing it for you...
I know... but...
Oh? You want the thoughts to go away this time?
...If you could...
No, I can't. You have to live with 'em.
...Sorry, I'm just burdening you like all the rest...
Why do you always assume that of yourself? That you burden others.
...Aren't I?
No, you aren't. You... just need someone there....
But no one wants to be there for me...
There's someone... You just need to give them time....
But.... I won't live that long...
Oh won't you?
No, I wont... I'm not worth the space.
Go through with it.
....Okay....
You moron, stop and listen!
....fine...
You need to cut this out.
I can't help it... I just
Shut it. You can. You're being oblivious.
To being someone's burden?
NO! Shut it.
Oh yes, I see how important I am... just sit here shutted up.
No, just let me get this in... You not being around=Not so good.
Oh, like I'm that important?
Heh, you don't know yet... you really won't know...
I'm not gonna do anything that useful...
HAH! You really have no idea.
Oh yes, someone who basically is failing school...
School isn't even that important right now...
Then why, why is it all I have to live for?!
Since...that's all there is....
Why am I so important then if that's all I have!?
....Stop those tears.... whipe them... I'm not going to answer if you can't even read...
....kay....
You'll have more later. But for now... just live with the fact that there's nothing.
I just can't.... it's not in my nature.
....As said, if you're going to die, take your own life. Don't bother making someone else do it...
...
Even indirectly. Don't.
....
Shut up, just let yourself listen.... listen...
but.... it's all so futile....
Isn't it? And yet millions of people live for this everyday...
....
Go read confidential confessions. first one.
....but it'll just remind me of all the reasons to die...
...Go read it.
Why?
Go. Now.
....
GO!
~After reading~
....So I read it...
...Do you understand what I'm trying to tell you?
That even if I die, no one will care?
...That a life lost, is lost for good. You're not going to get it back. You have something to teach everyone around you. That lesson, does not involve you taking your own life right now.
....But it just makes sense to do it now. Before I grow into something I hate....
Before you make a huge impact?
...My impact that'll make everyone sad around me?
Which wouldn't be your real mission? You're not going to die until your ready. Not only in wanting to alone.
I've been ready since January....
No, No you haven't. You're not ready yet, You're not dying till you are either.
even if I slit my throat?
....You may want to swallow scissors, but will that really happen, course not. Your body will stop you right before.
.....Why?
....It knows it's not supposed to die yet.
I have no will to live though....
You just... You're not going to die, so shut up and deal.
....But I want to... I just want to leave...
Just because you leave doesn't mean it'll make anything better.
But I don't want this!
You don't WANT what's after this if you do go now!
...As if it'll be better later?
...It will if you just accomplish what's needed....
How long will that be?!
....You'll know when you've done what you've needed that it's fine to leave...
I thought I was ready since January....
....No. You're not ready. Stop thinking that. January was January.
.....But I can't
Here. Just do your homework and come back to me later.
...fine.
~end
 Jello Challenged · Mon Oct 02, 2006 @ 04:12am · 0 Comments |
