....Again?
.....Yes....
What do you need of me this time?
....Guidance if you will?
I already told you all I really have to say.
....
But I will help you if you just tell me how
...I was hoping you'd tell me what the problem is
....You let yourself fall into dangerous areas.
What do you mean?
...You long to be loved?
...
Oh, No, I aint doing waterworks here.
Sorry....
You're not allowed to cry, I won't talk to you if you do.
....Alright...
My my my, aren't you brave?
....I'm desperate....
Understood.... Love for you....
...Yes?
....You really shouldn't focus on it all that-WHAT DID I JUST SAY!?
....I'm not letting the tears fall yet, keep going
Alright. Anyways, Forget, don't let yourself fall to far...
But.... I just want to be loved... to be held...
....Watch it... Anyways... Why do you crave this?
...I just... want someone there for me... To love... to kiss....
Oh? You think that'll cure all?
No, course not... just I think it's a main need...
Need? No, it's what you want. You're a little brat.
....Yes.
But you don't even ask for much...
...I still ask for the impossible....
You think you being loved is an impossible thing?
...*nod*
....Better watch those tears hon... I'm not cleaning up the mess
...Okay...
Anyways... Why can't you just focus the energy elsewhere?
....I don't know how...
THERES YOUR PROBLEM RIGHT THERE!
....what?
You need to focus that desire for love to something else....
Drawing?
....It's up to you, not me.
Music?
*nod*.... It's what those dreams have been telling you.
...But everytime... I just fail.... let people down...
YOU WOULDNT IF YOU KNEW WHAT YOU WERE DOING!
.... I don't want to let people down...
Well... get to it...
MONEY... I need it to go get an instrument...
Ways for that... they're coming in....
But I'm not worthy to be a musician
...oh?
Yes....
Really now?
Yes.
...Fine, live with the void... Crave love but get none.
...I never will get love will I?
....
I knew it... I knew I wasn't supposed to love!
Stop those tears.... They're close to falling...
.... I just... don't know what I did wrong....
Or maybe you're doing more right by not?
....But... I just...
Maybe the world warped your veiws more than I've realized....
I'd jump off a bridge too if everyone else was doing it... I'm just that type of person
........I unfortunately misjudged you....
what?
I thought you were more able to forget....
...I've tried.... Don't you remember?
Ah yes, Matt?
....*nod*.... He would never feel the same... yet I gave my entire heart to him... He'd never realize how much I truly... I just....
....Poor thing... You loving is all in vain...
I've known that...
But you really didn't want to believe it?
*nod*....
It's a thing no one wants to hear, let alone know is true...
....Why do I want to if there's really no hope of me doing so?
Your veiws... You want to just.... have someone.... someone to love you... to smush with love as you like to put it....
What do I do?
.... I don't really know what to tell you...
....I understand
 Jello Challenged · Tue Oct 03, 2006 @ 03:07am · 0 Comments |
