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Today was a day like every day... Go to school, mostly draw in between actual work, loathe the biggots... That's plenty of loathing, and coupled with the lack of sleep due to slight insomnia, I'm pretty damn tired. Enjoyed talking with my few, close friends, and casual replies to those that pass by. Despise for those standing in the hall, seemingly unaware of the fact that it is a hall, and carry on conversations on what I am sure is useless and essentially meaningless crap.
Had to read a story about Colombus' first impressions and the reason he exagerated the condition of the 'New' World; quite obvious considering the feudal theocracy in place in England. They should've included the part where he killed all the 'Indians', that would've been attention to detail. They left an oppressive, imperialist empire, to become... An oppressive, imperialist empire, with red-necks... Great stare .
Now I go to lunch with a kid thinking he can draw skulls much better than myself, and actually thinking he's going to show me how... As if I really care in the first place. If I really do suck at skulls, which isn't exactly the reaction I get from most, then I'm going to get good at it on my own damn terms, not learn for some arrogant little screw-off. In any case, I'll probably ignore him... "Communist moon," ******** moron.
Of course, I don't really tell anyone at school these sorts of thoughts; at school, it's time to put on the 'amiable-face', and hope no one says anything too infuriatingly stupid. A feigned smile here and there, "No, I don't hate you..." I just don't want to ever talk to you again. Luckily, I'm a very mellow person, and only act angry when I so choose; people don't make me mad, I let them do so. Unless they are completely, unavoidably antagonizing, I usually have no problem ignoring them.

At times, I wonder, "Why do anything?" Why talk to anyone, or make any friends... I'm just going to die at one point or another, most likely be forgotten, and have, on the grand-scheme, absolutely no impact on the World whatsoever. The human race means nothing right now, in a broad sense... We follow the blind, because we are dumb; we listen to the dumb because we are gullable. There's no rhyme or reason, we just neander about our daily lives until we die. Not that I'm going to stop doing what I have been, but I still don't see any point if it's all so insignificant anyway...

Maybe I shouldn't think about it...