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What is love? seriously what is it? is it being inslaved to someone?

Okay so i'm a little old school in some things. I want to love and be loved. to get married a virgin and be with that person for the rest of my life. not easy right? but worth trying. someone told me just cause someone married that person it wouldnt' be a secure thing, that it could end in a snap of a finger. he's right. just shows there wasnt' enough effort from both parts.
"i love you" is what you are telling the person when you propose or marry them. but loving is only half of it. the rest are things they go through to see if it was true (their love). my parents have been together for almost 18 years now. (marraige wise). I'm amazed that my mom hasnt' left my dad...for all the s**t he made us go through and the stuff he did out of his own selfishness. and i'm amazed my dad is still with my mom after the scars she left my older brother and i. they've been through so much together....they still love each other with all their lives. they look at each other with the same way they did in their wedding picture. eyes full of love and hope. never once have they been unfaithfull to one another, never. now know they only knew each other for a few weaks when they decided to marry and have a family....and they are still together now...
last night my mom told me love isn't like a slavery. its like another job. a harder job, but one you love doing every single second you do. irritating at times, but worth the while. because you try to keep things going, despite the problems that come up, and those problems you deal with them together.
I'd love to end up with someone and be with them for the rest of my life. *sigh* i love a GUY right now (amazing because for some time we thought i was a lesbian till now). he thinks extreamly differently from me. he'll probably think all this is bs....i dont' know. how i'd love to be with him...or something i dont' know. i can't make him love me, but i can be there for him when i can....probably not give advise(cause i suck at that) but at least make sure he's alive...and help him find his happiness.