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I write about this cause i'm in one at this very moment. Pathectic i know? why bother being with them if you dont' even have feelings for them right? Well there really is no good reason as to why cause all one does is hurt that person, they huurt them more the longer they last with them, the more they make them believe that you do care for them. What would make this worse? having, or being in love with some one else! crap bummer hu? I was in one before, but it was that other persont hat was with me with out having actual feelings and all that stuff. Now i'm in one again, this time its me. I told the guy already that i may never in my life have feelings for him much less love him. I also told him that i like/love(which ever term you would like to use) another guy with all my life (at the moment and till who knows when....) he accepts it and claims to still try anyways(try one what i'm not sure).
this guy i'm with is what it call a girls dream guy, he is in basic point perfect? he is just so wonderfull but up to now i still havn't managed a single feeling for him more then a friend or brother.all my friends think he's the sweetest guy in the world, and kind and etc. As for the other guy that i like...well not many girls that i know here would see him idealistic. but i in the other hand see him perfect...see his imperfections perfect...am i making sense here? Then again many say what i feel for him is just a simple crush becaue he helped me when i needed him and i don't knwo what else they've said. but either way to me he seems perfect despite all imperfections.
Relationships with out love...i've noticed most of those last longer then an average relationship with affection....well atleast around where i live they do... I mean someone likes you a lot but you like someone else but then that person more likly doesn't even like you in that same form. What is oen to do in that position? any oen care to elaborate(express) their opinion on this?