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So i was talking and still am(at the moemnt of writting this journal) talking to soemone. My brothers friend, and aparently so my friend too ^-^' He and i always usually fight and have major desputes. Obveasly i've been on a downer, and out of no where..well yea lets let you read our conversation....(I'm "Dreenks" by the way)

Arturo says:
hello?
Dreenks says:
hi
Arturo says:
i thought you die... damn.
Dreenks says:
lol no i live
Arturo says:
for now, for now...> >
Dreenks says:
hmm
Arturo says:
^^
Dreenks says:
hm i'm mad now
Arturo says:
what i did... i was just playing...
Dreenks says:
(brb imma go hit my punching bag)
Dreenks says:
not at you, someone else
Arturo says:
oh... what? what happen?
Dreenks says:
back
Dreenks says:
my friends, everyone
Arturo says:
what happen?
Dreenks says:
i dont' know who i can trust, who i can believe (i'm having a brake down)
Arturo says:
o-k... that a serious problem.. and i know how that feels, you can tell me, i'm your friend am i?
Dreenks says:
i dont' know...i dont' know who's my friend anymore
Arturo says:
how in the world you don't know whos your friend anymore?
Dreenks says:
cause i dont' know who is or isn't. Who are my friends and who is with me for their own conviniance
Dreenks says:
i dont' know who cares, or who is being honest
Dreenks says:
who i can trust, no one helps me when i need them but i'm always there when they need me and want to talk to me
Dreenks says:
i'm sorry you can call me emo but i couldn't hold it in its been bugging me and you're the only one i'm talkign to right now...
Arturo says:
no worries. you know i have a saying: i'm your friend as long as they think i'm they friend. i may not be the best friend in the world but i can help in whatever i can even if you don't trust me, i can win your trust back.
Dreenks says:
where did you get that?
Arturo says:
thats what i believe.
Dreenks says:
oh, its nice
Arturo says:
yep thanks to you i got my trust for my friends here in horizon, i know how that feels. and i won't let anyone feel that way anymore.
Dreenks says:
how did you pass it(other then me)
Arturo says:
well i examinet why i desided to think that way. and then you told me something i don't exacly remember but i think it was exacly what i just told you. if you don't trust me then i have to win your trust back. then i realice that people that are determinated to have your trust then those are the people you call real friends.
Dreenks says:
oh, that's interesting, and i suppose its right
Arturo says:
of course you teach me that. after what you told me i decided to just keep trusting everyone but not exacly to the point where you just tell secrets at random. if a person trust you and you trust him then thats friendship right there.
Dreenks says:
nice, its very nice. and very true
Arturo says:
i trusted you with my secret because i know that you are a good person at heart even if you don't show it and i know you won't tell anyone about my secret. so you think you can trust dumbo one more time?
Dreenks says:
yea i think i can
Arturo says:
ok you don't have to trust me completly just enough for me to help you out.
Dreenks says:
okay, thanks
Arturo says:
your welcome, so what exacly happen that make you think that way?
Dreenks says:
i read something (liek an article) and it sorta made me think
Dreenks says:
and latley i've been depressed so the article made me feel worse
Arturo says:
and what did the article say?
Dreenks says:
it had to do with trusting people. how one person can only talk to the other not much caue they like that person cause they want something out of it
Dreenks says:
that everythign we see now can be a lie
Arturo says:
wait explain, what do you mean by that?
Dreenks says:
which part, the first or second
Arturo says:
second about everything being a lie.
Dreenks says:
that what people tell us and do for us and all can be lies
Dreenks says:
so it made me think about all you guys and everyone i talk to. who is real who is fake
Arturo says:
well you know that i'm real i know these world is a difficult place since you can't trust everyone because everyone hide things from people or they are just your friends because they want something from you. thats why you can't trust everyone expecialy people you met in the interenet. but for example people that have been your friends for a long time then you may trust that people because they have been your friends for a long time and haven't ask anything from you.

Arturo says:
oh well it always depends on the level of the favor or they think they ask you, but people that are willing to do something for your or that are willing to help you out then you may trust that people but if they only want help from you and don't return the favor then you don't have to trust that people. think of it this way i never ask you to do me favors and we have both help us when we have trouble with something and i trust you with my secret and you trust me with some secrets too, and we even fight and haven't talk in a while but at the end we end up back talking and being friends.
Dreenks says:
yea, very true, an that made me laugh cause it was so long but so easy to read(thanks)
Arturo says:
your welcome
Arturo says:
so did all that i told you help?
Dreenks says:
yes, and i thank you mucho
Dreenks says:
still sad, but it help a lot
Arturo says:
don't worry as long as you are not confused anymore i know i did i good job.
Dreenks says:
=^-^=


yea...after that he and i were jsut beign idiots(sorta).. as for the part where i said "no one helps me when i need them" i was only refering to sertain people. Cause some do try to help me (especially jamal(.. heart ..), dawn,trisha, cherry, rachael, lizy and i thank them mucho). and give Arturo a break he doesnt' know english very well(no offence man).. Also know now i took out one part of the conversation because that part is completly between me and him. I still feel sad-ish but thanks to this conversation with him, and a pm i sent to someone(not sayign but they know who they are) i sorta feel better.