Considering everyone else out there on Gaia doesn't really know me, save for maybe one or two people I know in real life, from school.
But the thought of writing in this gives me comfort, in it being a real diary I can still type up and share, and have people read, but not really have to reply or understand or even CARE - it's the feeling and knowledge that someone out there is reading.
So I think I'll start writing regularly. To myself, to anyone who wants to read occasionally.
Where to start?
Probably with the fact that there's a "winter" (which I hate to call, considering it SHOULD be a Christmas dance) dance tomorrow that I'll be going to with some girlfriends. Yes, just a group of girls - no date. Guys have recently been off my scale of thought lately, which is surprising. I either like a guy and he doesn't really know how to act, and screws up (majorly), or, I like a guy and he dissapears. Or, I like a guy and he, well, is just confusing. It's like an inner circle of drama - so no guys. Being single is refreshing for a change, even though I've only had two relationships in just about two years, I'm not really begging for more.
Anyway, back to the dance. I have a turquoise dress, knee length, black ribbon, a little touch of lace. I'm not going to do much else, it's not like it's PROM or anything. I'll be there, among friends, dressed up and feeling pretty, which is unusual, because lately I've just been sleeping in and going to school feeling comfortable, groggy, lazy when it comes to looks. I used to dress up all the time - maybe when I felt like I had someone to impress. But lately, I've realized that being myself and just letting things go smoothly, will cause all the pieces to fall into place ... but, it will feel good to get a little dolled up, at least for one night, won't it?
I'll write later. I've been feeling inspired lately.
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J u s t [MOI].
Lalala, 'alo there.
I probably won't write here much.
But if I do it's probably pointless.
But waste your time at will.
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