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(This entry is slightly charred and hard to read)

So many things have happened. This is going to be a long one... Father always told me that writing helps relax my firey temper. I wish I had had the willpower to write in here before...maybe everything wouldn't have built up like it did.

We faced the bugs.

The zentari's real home world was a dead planet. Sick and disgusting. We landed regardless and set to work. Of course we lost all of our recon team in there with nothing but a crypic message of, "They are comming out of the walls..." It unerved the crew. Regardless, Myself, Kyra. Violet and Marx went down to the planets surface to check it out.

Shamefully, I was only able to collect some of their dogtags. Partaly because there wasn't enough of them left to salvage at all. We eventualy found them at the back. It was true. They came out of the walls and consumed the D.N.A of my fallen men. Now they had human D.N.A.... one last step to becoming complete.

We were over run immediatly by all the bugs and I called a retreat. I was one of the last ones out of course. I didn't want to leave anyone behind. When we were safly back on the ship, I saw the planet covor in these...creatures. Some so hideous that it makes me ill to think about. We decided to destroy this world.

The Zentari were...less than pleased but I had made up my mind. If they wanted to come and take care of the problem themselves, they could.....of course they declined. In exchange I would take the Mudokens from their new planet and bring them to earth. The head had no problem and aggreed immediatly. Berk seemed fine with the idea as well. I don't blame him for wanting to get away from those rancid whores. Before we nuked it, I sent message to the male Zentari that we would come and get them. I have choosen who to ally myself with in the furure.

Then there is Arwen. She was the female Zentari that those bitches sent to watch me. Though she seems humble in her ways and I'd wish she'd stop calling me "Master". I am the commander of this ship, not a master. I don't own anyone.

Berk came to talk to me about a freaky vision he had while we were preparing to go get the male Zentari. he spoke of my world infected with the Zurg. My father being "silenced" and my whole world in ruin. I did not appreciate the added stress. Though he did tell me that it may not be, with some intervention, which was good. I had tried so hard to protect my world, that I refuse to let it die.

In warp, Berk alerted me to the lifeforms on peices if the old planet we had blown. They possessed the Zerg. I in stantly ordered them blown and almost lost an idiot piolet in the strike. He's fine but it was quite annoying. Will all the peices destroyed we moved to pick up the male Zentari. It semms not all of them are male. It seems that there are outcast females too. Do they not feel compassion.

I've kept my liange to myself and my closeset friends only. I figured I shouldn't tell the male Zentari. I would have to speak to my brother later about this. In fact, I have not spoke to him in a while. I miss him...

One last person came abourd after everyone else was gone. Their, "Oricle" First off, she was able to hold my sword which I thought only I could. Then she touched my hair in a real creepy way.

She told me she was my mother...or used to be. She seemed to contradict herself over and over. She'd give me no strait answers, only riddles. I wanted more from her! Goddamnit, I have a right to know. She called my birth a "blessing." Although it didn't feel like a blessing to me. I suppose her showing up was the straw that broke my back. After I showed her to her quarters, I instantly went to mine. And..oh...poor Arwen....I lashed out at her. I didn't hit her of course, but I scared her so much that she ran from my office. Then I proceded to destroy my office with my sword. Plasma and all. By the time anyone had been brave enough to enter, (It was Krya by the way..) I had already destroyed my bedroom and was slumped on the floor, wallowing in my self pitty. Now, I've never been too emotional. Passionate yes...but not emotional. Kyra had somehow managed to calm me. I told her to get checked out because her nose suddenly started to bleed. My worry for her, overcame my anger for my mother.

I brought Arwen in and hugged her. I told her how sorry I was and I didn't mean to yell at her. She forgave me, which is a relief. Then reminded me that on her planet, they could have more than one partner. I decided to ignore that. she may be becoming a bit too attached to me.... Although is it bad that I consedered it?

Well thats about it. I'm all caught up. We had some storage office equipment and it was placed in my study after it was cleaned. My anger has cooled for the moment. I guess what had bothered me the most as that my...mother told me, my father was silent. Just like Berk said...I really hope the world isn't gone when I get back. I hope there is still time to save it...Oh! I told my father I should have stayed with him! He never listened to me. I suppose thats where I got my over bearing pride and poweful temper. I miss my father. Part of me wishes he was dead so he wouldn't have to suffer anymore. The other part of me would miss him dearly. I just wish he knew how much I loved him. I also wished he knew how much I hated him for my birth.

It was sad...but I missed earth. Maybe it was home, now that I would be bringing alien's back. Maybe I could finialy fit in....