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I basicaly got booted from my monday night roleplaying group tonight. basicaly they had a problem. Only three poeple ever get payed attention during the whole session and the only way to get attention is to be agressive. So I got agressive and they didn't like it. I ******** hate it. Worst off they all went behind my back talking bad about me instead of comming to be about it. I hate that s**t. Monday is the only night I see them and Our DM basicaly told me to take a hike. Nice to know game comes before friendship. Well I feel like i've lost a whole circle of friends. Like they took a ******** dagger and stabbed me in the back a ton of times. That has happened to me before and four years ago when I joined them, they told me they were good honnest people who would never do that sort of thing to me. What a ******** lie.
Worss still, There is someone who is a total a*****e to everyone in the group and no one complains about him at all. Just me. They liked me when I first joined cuz I was meek and listened and obeyed there every word. Now that I have an oppinion of my own, they ditch me! They need to grow up and learn it's just a ******** game! Just because I roleplay someone who's a bit snippy, does not mean I am that way!

I cried alot tonight. Ian had to comfort me and Ally helped alot. Thank Apollo for both of them. A man I loved like a brother was among the backstabbers. I feel a bit of a loss now. Goddamnit. I am usualy chearful and obtimistic but tonight I'm a bit agitated....more than a bit really.

Ally and Ian had me laughing afterwards. At least I have a few good friends left, but my friends from the last four years of my twenty year old life, just basicaly told me to get lost. I is sad and angry.

these are things just said out of sadness and confusion but right now, I feel this way.