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<center>The proverbial s**t has hit the fan ladies and gents. I talked to my friend, and we worked things out for the most part. I think I actually hurt myself more than he did. I put too much hope on what wasn't there. It is very depressing though. I really like him, in a way that is definitely not going to help me out anytime soon; especially with the whole internet dating taboo and what not. I do that to myself alot. I think I attract more guys online because they don't know what I look like, so they know me because of my personality. I personally don't think I'm a frankenstein, but its not like guys I come in contact everyday are always hitting on me.

I can't wait to really be hit on; by a decent looking guy perferably. I assume its very flattering. All the guys I know (14 year olds like myself) are really very...immature. They're still caught up on blowing snot bubbles and hitting eachother on the back to see who can take more pain. Which, granted, a lot of older guys do.

Anyway, back to business.

I'm very confused right now. My feelings are all completely mixed up. I think I like this guy, who likes me, but doesn't want to start anything until he gets unconfused...and...Its just a mess. We've both got things to work out. I just hope whatever decision he makes is truly will make him happy.

At least I know that whatever happens, I've still got myself and I'll be okay.

...I'll be okay...

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