For some, I am a roleplay partner. To others I am dear friends. To one, I am the love of their life. But that the moment I feel as if none of you can help me, no matter how dear.
My life seems to be in a slump. My grades in school have dropped harshly. I have been feeling more depressed each and every day. Currently, I am back from vacation and I still feel no better. In fact, coming home has made me feel even worse. I hate living in Ohio. I HATE IT. There is nothing to do around this god forsaken middle of nowhere. I try to do things other than sitting at home, but when I finish I feel as if I accomplished nothing.
School sucks right now too. My English teacher is a crazy b***h, my Japanese teacher expects everyone to be perfect and science teacher hates my guts. Oh yeah, and I have to do work I did not even sign up for because the stupid school website wants some newspaper recognition.
I want to be a writer, but I can't think of a damn plot to save my life. Yeah I know, I sound like such an emo it could kill someone, but you know what I say to that; ******** OFF. My mom and dad fight every night over my brother, who will be 21, not this year, but next year and they still treat him like he is a grade schooler. Yeah, he heart a heart problem when he was about seven. He could have died. I am grateful he did not. When he was a freshman, I thought he would never walk again because his hip was basically broken, but now he can run. During these times I was ignored, and I knew why. But now I feel like a tiny dirt speck in the life of my parents. My brother might have be to taken out of college. Yeah, well I might be failing out of high school.
If anyone...ANYONE is reading this I want someone to say that they care. Someone to tell me it will be okay. Someone to give me some hope that I get through this hell I am going through. Someone to show me that they care. I don't care if you are a stranger to me....or someone I have known in real life, or someone I have known since I began Gaia.
Everyone has a moment in their life when all they can thinking about are the bad things in life....well mine is now. Help me see something good. Tnank you every much....for anyone who has read this far....and if you do decide to comment on this page or send me a tell....I shall be eternally grateful.
My life seems to be in a slump. My grades in school have dropped harshly. I have been feeling more depressed each and every day. Currently, I am back from vacation and I still feel no better. In fact, coming home has made me feel even worse. I hate living in Ohio. I HATE IT. There is nothing to do around this god forsaken middle of nowhere. I try to do things other than sitting at home, but when I finish I feel as if I accomplished nothing.
School sucks right now too. My English teacher is a crazy b***h, my Japanese teacher expects everyone to be perfect and science teacher hates my guts. Oh yeah, and I have to do work I did not even sign up for because the stupid school website wants some newspaper recognition.
I want to be a writer, but I can't think of a damn plot to save my life. Yeah I know, I sound like such an emo it could kill someone, but you know what I say to that; ******** OFF. My mom and dad fight every night over my brother, who will be 21, not this year, but next year and they still treat him like he is a grade schooler. Yeah, he heart a heart problem when he was about seven. He could have died. I am grateful he did not. When he was a freshman, I thought he would never walk again because his hip was basically broken, but now he can run. During these times I was ignored, and I knew why. But now I feel like a tiny dirt speck in the life of my parents. My brother might have be to taken out of college. Yeah, well I might be failing out of high school.
If anyone...ANYONE is reading this I want someone to say that they care. Someone to tell me it will be okay. Someone to give me some hope that I get through this hell I am going through. Someone to show me that they care. I don't care if you are a stranger to me....or someone I have known in real life, or someone I have known since I began Gaia.
Everyone has a moment in their life when all they can thinking about are the bad things in life....well mine is now. Help me see something good. Tnank you every much....for anyone who has read this far....and if you do decide to comment on this page or send me a tell....I shall be eternally grateful.
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I really don't know what to say, except that I know how you feel and it's terrible to be alone. I hope everything will work out, for you and your family because everything heals with time.
I love you very much and I hope everything gets better soon Mari.