"Uhmm....well, lets see. I wrote down alot of stuff to say at this candle light. But I don't really know how," I started to say as I stood up from my seat, candle in hand,"So let me start by saying thank you."
If you are wondering, I am at camp. The last and final day of being a full camper is ending, and as Ranch Camp tradition states, you must go to the Candlelight Ceremony. It is always really sad. Right now all my friends all bawling, I have not said anything. I guess that what expected...I mean, I told them I might never come back. I told them I was moving far away.
So, slowly but surely, I started to talk. I made my way through the thank yous, reading my candlelight. My vision is blurring, and I can feel my tears run down my cheeks, and the only think that is running through my head is why.
"Camp is important to me. Before I became the crazy anime freak you all know and love," I got a few giggles at that comment,"I was shy. I did not talk to anyone. So I came to camp. I have been for six years, and my medal is proof of that. I don't think I can just stop remembering, and forget those six years ever existed. These seriously are the best times of my life--your lives!!"
"I know that it is my last year as a camper...and probably at Kern for a long time...but I just want to say: I love you all very much. Your are my sisters, and brothers of the summer. Your my family. Now and Forever."
I stepped forwards, and I tossed my speech into the fire, right between two logs. Just so I could see it burn. I think everyone saw me cry then, as I watched the flames engulf my paper. Beside me, Audrey put her arm around me, and I buried my face into her side as on my other side, Little Erin stood to do her own speech.
It went on down the line. Little Erin, Deztany, Ellen, Big Erin, Sydney, Vicky. Everyone. I watched them all, and cried so much. I don't think I ever cried this much before. Not when my Grandfather died. Not when I was told I was moving to Ohio. Not when.....I was told I had to move. I felt as if my heart was being ripped in two.
I am in love with a guy. But I think my love for camp family exceeds that. Everyone these is so special. So when Rachel told us all to go back to the lodge, I grabbed my sweatshirt, dropped my candle holding (the flame was out) and rushed to embrace all of my roommates in a huge hug, then we all began to cry again.
The next day, was our parent show. It went well. All of our horses went over the tiny jump in the arena. Liz has taught us well. Once my horse Apache was out in the feild, I went to my other horse that I had ridden Lilly. She was the one that had almost bucked my off, but I stayed on and now I think only me and Hannah can ride her. I reached up and stroked her nose softly, and for once she did not try to bite. She just started at me with her big brown eyes, and I say I was crying again. Swallowing my tears, I continued to pet her, going to her neck and then giving her a big hug. And finally, a kiss on her nose. Then, I grabbed her halter, and led her outside with the other horses.
After my parents got my in the car, me and my family went to a Frisches, where I had a gourmet breakfast, and I chicken sandwich. Then...I went home.
I sat in my room a few days ago wondering if I would see them again. And when I went the movies, and there was Deztany at the door. I knew that these were my true friends here. Now I sit here telling all of my friends this story.
The only thing I really have to say now is that...those girls at camp were my true family. My true freinds. I love them all so much, as weird as they may be. We are sisters and brothers to the very end. Nothing beats the love we had for each other, the love we had for our counselors (who by the end of the two weeks were no longer our counselors but our mothers and fathers), the love that we had for our horses (who became our children). We were a family. A great family.
I love every single one of you with ALL of my heart forever. I will never forget any of you. Ever. You are all so special that I cannot name how special everyone is. And yes...that includes all of our hyper, stupid and crazy antics.
I miss you all so much. So so much.
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