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Anyway, this is the update I said I was going to do in my other entry...about my other entry.

For the past week my depression and scitzophrenia have been acting up again. I've been hearing voices, seeing things and the general stuff that I used to go through before being medicated.

I went to see my shrink today and found out that it was due to the dosage of my pills being lower. We had been trying to wean me off medication but apparently that's not going to happen until I'm less stressed.

And less stress isn't going to happen anytime soon, especially since my finacee is pregnant with my second and potentially third (twin factor) child.

So, I had to go back on the dosage I was on for some of my meds a few months ago. It's kind of an upset because I was kind of hoping not to be reliant on medication to keep my sanity. I guess that's just not the case right now.

On a side note, my son totally cheered me up today. He said to me:"Daddy, when i grow up, I want to be just like you." To which I replied:"No you don't, daddy has to many brain issues." He kind of gave me this look and went back to color. About half an hour later I was sitting on the floor coloring with him and he gets up and goes to his toy box.

He comes back, puts his 'tools' (which include a plastic saw, plastic hammer, plastic screw driver ext) on the floor beside my leg, gets on my lap and picks up the saw and pretends to saw my head open. I asked him:"What are you doing?" and he replied:"I'm going to fix your brain." I don't think I've ever laughed that hard in my life.

After I had my laughing fit he was like:"But I'm cerial (serious) daddy, I wanna fix your brain". So he performed a labotamy on me...I have high hopes for him...lol. (yes this was copy pasted from one of my posts... razz )

He put a Dora bandaid on my head too...I still have it on...lol.

Anyway, life in a nutshell for me is that I'm still reliant on meds and I really don't like it. I have nothing much else to say right now so...BLAH.